I had the urge to clear the ground, to look out and see nothing. Except there’s no such thing as nothing. Nothing means removal. It means something was there and now it’s not. I always end up here. I tell you that it’s over, I cut my hair, I move across the country. I swear to you I’m a different clara now. This one is clean inside and out. I sucked out all the evil blood and replaced it with something good and pure like alkaline water or green tea.
Very well written and a wonderful critique of overly formulaic Catholicism. As G.K. Chesterton said, "Let your religion be less a theory and more a love affair.” If you wish to know a more authentic form of the Catholic Faith, I will happily answer any questions (you’re right in that there are meanings behind some of those numbers).
Your work captures ambivalence about religion quite well, toeing the line between seeking absolution for sin and indulging the hold of Catholic beliefs over you. Very beautiful words too; an easy flow between sentences. Stunning, really.
I went to church for the first 10 years of my life, I went to CCD maybe 20 times, I confessed only once. I still don't know what much of it meant. Maybe if we keep crunching the numbers we'll find out. Excellent stuff.
Wow you actually summed up Catholicism in one paragraph. I like this one.
thank you thank you
This I will read 71 times. Bravo.
thanks bradley!
Very well written and a wonderful critique of overly formulaic Catholicism. As G.K. Chesterton said, "Let your religion be less a theory and more a love affair.” If you wish to know a more authentic form of the Catholic Faith, I will happily answer any questions (you’re right in that there are meanings behind some of those numbers).
Love this! I wonder, what is the significance of the lowercase “clara” in your work when referencing the self?
no real reason lol. i just think it looks better that way
71: chance happens before the self can act
That last paragraph is a beautiful sledgehammer to the teeth.
thanks will!
"but my therapist priced me out and divine intervention is free"
"but all I really needed was someone to tell me to shut the fuck up and pray"
yoooo, 🙏
pray 4 me
so so good
Your work captures ambivalence about religion quite well, toeing the line between seeking absolution for sin and indulging the hold of Catholic beliefs over you. Very beautiful words too; an easy flow between sentences. Stunning, really.
thank you for the kind words! i'm so glad you enjoyed it
I went to church for the first 10 years of my life, I went to CCD maybe 20 times, I confessed only once. I still don't know what much of it meant. Maybe if we keep crunching the numbers we'll find out. Excellent stuff.
I think keep asking what 71 means…, might answer every question ever
exactly x 71